Christmas days

As Christmas passed so does this year nearly end. It seems like every Christmas gets more lonely focused on those things that are unimportant. The meaning of Christmas is slowly getting lost. But what do i know? all i know is that i was feeling tired and numb during the day, appetite was somewhere away from my taste. Sending messages to those who might know me a bit, fades my inner pain a little. At the same time it doubled got reminded that some persons don't care at all. They stay just strangers. As i kept hoping for more, begging for more always i just receive emptiness. Find myself crying daily forgetting the sense of joy.